i feel like a mess. im clinging onto things that have already seen thier glory days but i cant let go. im stuck. im the only one who is so desperate to salvage these relationships...and that kinda hurts. the whole idea of new years resolutions has gotten into my head and now im trying to figure out a way to redo myself. a new year, a new me? i like the old me. no one else does. i cant go on like this, being all pitiful and pathetic but i cant seem to shake it. ive put a lot of energy into certain things and have not been reaping any benefits besides a heavy heart and utter lameness.
god, this sucks.
and, yao my friend, you can tell whoever you like about this blog...its nothing special. i thought it was going to be, but so far, its not. youre the only one i trust with this stuff, for the most part anyway...originally, i wasnt going to tell anyone about it. but you asked :-) and im glad you did. if you ever find that you dont want to comment me into reasonable thought, ill understand.
but i hope that doesnt happen.
i cant wait for school to start. i need a distraction in the worst way.
the top 10 most emailed articles list makes me happy. todays in particular.
i need some absinthe.
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yeah i feel like a mess, too. and i second that wanting for school to start. i'm desperate for some homework, but dreading being in dc. maybe i can take correspondance courses?
personally, i've come to the realization that relationships are venus fly traps. "ohh, look at the beautiful, harmless flower. i think i shall land on it for a quick respite.
GAHHHHH!!!!! now i can't get out and i'm being torn apart by these sweet-smelling digestive juices!"
in my case, i guess that extends not only to relationships, but any contact with girls lasting more than 5 minutes.
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did i hijack your pity party? too bad, it's my comment and i'll cry if i want to. now *that's* being assertive. anyhow, i think we should make new blog members a committee choice. this blog *is* something special. along with the four million other blogs with witty titles that talk about life problems and have pity parties. i like it.
yeah, someday i'll probably not feel like commenting your ass into reasonableness. it's probably because i have homework; don't think it means i never want to talk to you again. i do like the old you. but i'm looking forward to the sequel-- maybe there will be absinthe involved : ).
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