whoa with the melodrama.
im still in awe of what i said and how i acted.
i hate when things dont go my way.
and on top of that i was wicked tired.
damn, this sucks.
on one hand, it is so not a big deal.
im not going to die because of this.
and it will be nice when we do talk again.
on the other hand, i know myself.
and i know that ill miss the phone calls.
im afraid that whenever it is that we do talk, itll be lame.
also, is this setting the pattern?
that we talk once a week?
cause thats lame.
and on yet another hand, i dont know why this matters.
any of it.
when im feeling rational and well rested, i can think clearly about this.
and its all ok.
i would like to be your bff still.
i would like to talk to you as often as i can.
and i know that it might not work out that way, but setting rules about it drives me nuts.
why cant we just see what happens?
i dont like to be told what to do and thats part of the problem.
i would like to talk as much is reasonable and doable.
i hate embargos, parameters, rules, and restrictions.
why cant things be normal?
gah.
seeing this all written out makes me realize that im retarded.
damn it all.
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i'm not crazy about how i acted either. i'm sorry i was so cold.
i know you hate embargoes, parameters, etc., but i still think we need time. and this is the only way i can think of that will work.
how about this for rules... no talking on the phone until Feb 1 (three weeks from yesterday). blogging and ims don't count, just phone calls. we can have one free call a piece. and obviously, if there's a crisis and there's no one else to call, then that's perfectly fine: this only applies to casual phone calling.
it won't be lame when we talk again, because three weeks is not that long.
so what do you think?
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